I’m not very good at keeping this blog updated with details about our trip to South Africa, so I’m hoping this post doesn’t feel like it’s just coming out of nowhere.
Without going into too much detail, because that could boring, I’ve had to cancel the Uganda leg of our trip to Africa next May. There were too many doors being closed, and I was trying too hard to push them open, and I just finally got to the point where I knew that the Lord wanted me, and the entire team, to just focus on loving South Africa at this time.
So yesterday morning was spent calling team members and travel agents, making the proper arrangements, and seeking counsel from others that this was, in fact, the right thing to do.
This was a hard decision to make, personally, because on top of the many other things that we were going to do while in Uganda, it meant that I wouldn’t get to see Joel. And my sister and mother wouldn’t get to meet this little boy who has a piece of my heart. And only the Lord knows when and if I’ll get the chance to go back to Uganda.
In addition to the heartbreak of not getting to kiss and squeeze that boy, I’ve realized that there is now no comfort zone whatsoever. I am walking into this trip completely blind. Having never been to SA before, nothing will be familiar. And I think that is exactly where He wants me to be. Because in Jesus, there is no comfort zone. He is always going to ask the hard things of us, because He knows that we will find joy in being completely dependent upon Him.
1 Chronicles 16:11 “Look to the LORD and His strength; seek His face always.”
He has already overwhelmed me with peace about the decision. As hard as it was to come to, I know it was the right thing to do. The amount of planning I was having to do has already been cut in half, and therefore, my stress level has gone down significantly. Plus, the cost of the trip has decreased, which is a major blessing in itself.
Daniel 10:18-20 “Again the one who looked like a man touched me and gave me strength. “Do not be afraid, O man highly esteemed,” He said. “Peace! Be strong now; be strong.” When He spoke to me, I was strengthened and said, “Speak, my Lord, since You have given me strength.”
So here we go.
Out into the unknown once again.
Relying only on His strength.
Katie Davis said it best :
“She follows Jesus into situations that only He can get her out of.”
Let the adventure begin.