I am writing this blog at the risk of sounding like someone who should be committed. But I just can’t take the voices anymore.
Loud voices, quiet voices… self-condeming voices, self-praising voices… important voices, unnecessary voices… holy voices, human voices…
Voices that are pushing and pulling me in every direction.
And I want to scream so I can be heard.
And I just need a few moments of quiet.
Quiet. To decipher which voices I should listen to. Which voices I should follow. Quiet to decipher which voices I should base life decisions on.
Because on my own, I can manipulate any voice I please to make it sound like I want it to. On my own, I can follow any voice I want.
But I don’t want to do that, because I’m not on my own.
I want to turn down my voice and the voices of this world and only hear the voice of my Maker. To silence every voice besides the only One that matters.
“Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, ‘This is the way; walk in it.'” Isaiah 30:21
I’ve found the only way to silence the voices, is to just keep going deeper. Because the deeper you go, the quieter it gets.
So I’m spending these next few months at attention before God. Diving deep and praying He silences the voices, so that I’m only left with His quiet whisper.
“Then [Elijah] was told, ‘Go, stand on the mountain at attention before God. God will pass by.’ A hurricane wind ripped through the mountains and shattered the rocks before God, but God wasn’t to be found in the wind; after the wind an earthquake, but God wasn’t in the earthquake; and after the earthquake fire, but God wasn’t in the fire; and after the fire a gentle and quiet whisper.” 1 Kings 19:11-12